Family – Spent lots of time with family members this weekend. Some of it was enjoyable, some of it was quite uncomfortable. I guess it’s always that way with family, though.
Friends – Also spent some time with the friend that I was reunited with recently. We went out for dinner and came back to watch Little Miss Sunshine, which is always a treat.
Church – Went to Mom’s church this morning. My sister and I wanted to surprise her for Mother’s Day, but it was strange to be back in the church that I grew up in. We took her out to eat afterwards and had a very nice time.
Adoption – I saw many of the people that I grew up with today at church. Almost all of them have their own families and I couldn’t help but feel a little pang of jealousy.
I would love to have a child and I’ve been spending quite a bit of time thinking about adoption lately. I don’t even know if it’s a possibility. The cost alone is intimidating, not to mention the challenges facing two men trying to raise a child. It seems a little unfair that we have to work so hard for what most take for granted.
These are the cards that life has dealt me and I understand that there are going to be some limitations and inconveniences. It still puzzles me how anyone could think we choose to be this way, considering how difficult it can be.