I am done.

I no longer feel the need to change your mind, to make you see the truth, to convince you that some things are as obvious as the nose on your face.

Your bigotry is astounding, your religion is as flawed as your logic, you make my head hurt and my stomach turn.

I am tired. Twenty years of arguing and pleading my case has left me worn and weary. I can only imagine you are just as bored with those same talking points you have been using for so long, even though you keep throwing them like daggers in hopes they will stick in someone every once in a while.

I used to care what you think. About me. About people like me. About people completely unlike me who you insist are my bedfellows simply because we share the commonality of belief in human dignity and justice.

But I don’t care any more.

You are so hell-bent on hatred and bigotry that nothing could convince you to change your mind. You revel in your role as victim, and you nurture your prejudice under the umbrella of religious freedom.

You make me sick.

You read your book, say your prayers, and flood the internet with your attacks on the “least of these.” You say God made us all in his image in one breath, then damn us all to hell in the next. I can only hope there is no afterlife, because I can’t stand the thought of spending eternity with you.

So we have reached an impasse, as it were. I can’t change your mind any more than you can change my sexuality. The only thing I can change is whether or not I waste another minute of my life on you.

You are the past, but I am the future.

Author: Brian

Blogger. Bookworm. Michael Jackson fanatic. Lives in Kentucky with partner of 12 years and three fabulous felines.

2 thoughts on “Impasse”

  1. Hello Brian, It’s me again. I’m not sure if you remember me, but my name is Julia. I have commented on a few of your posts. I honestly wasn’t sure what to think about the supreme court’s decision. I can honestly say, I’m not shocked. I saw this coming. What I really want to say, is that I’m sorry. I’m sorry on behalf of my Christian brothers and sisters for hurting you, and for putting you down, because that’s not what we’re called to do. Jesus himself said that the two greatest commandments are to “Love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, and mind and the second is like it, love your neighbor as yourself.” He also tells us in Matthew 5:44 to, “love our enemies and pray for those who persecute us.” I want to tell you how scared I am of how this new law is tearing an even bigger rift between Christians and homosexuals. Before, we could tolerate each other, barely, but at least it wasn’t this bad. I read a post the other day that was saying how Canada had legalized gay marriage and that ended up in a loss of freedom of speech as well as Christian parents (and others opposing gay marriage) having their children taken away from them. Hopefully, our country doesn’t come to this, but I fear, if homosexuals and Christians can not find some level of peace with each other, this is what it will come to. Unfortunately, there are not enough Christians like me who can spread the truth of how we are supposed to be reacting. I realize, that you may not hold yourself to the same standard that I as a Christian hold myself to, but if you can find, in your heart, the ability to forgive those Christians who are treating you wrongly, and encourage others to do the same, there may still be a hope for our country. I will not lie, there is an acceptable level of anger for us Christians to express. Let me explain first, in John 2:13-25, Jesus gets angry. This is not considered a sin though, because it is right to have a Godly anger. In this passage the merchants in the temple were mocking the name of the Lord by using the temple as a place to sell items, rather than worship the Lord. I will admit, that I have seen pictures, of parades where two people, are hanging on a cross, and they are in some way, supporting homosexuality (one was of two girls hanging on the cross naked and kissing each other). This made me angry, just because Christians and homosexuals may not see eye to eye, this is no reason to mock our Lord. Another reason you may see Christians be angry about, is when homosexuals try to use the Bible to prove homosexuality to be okay, according to Christian standards. It says in Leviticus 18:22-24 that this is wrong, as well as having sex with animals. Once again, I don’t mean any of this in a hateful way at all, I believe we should love each other equally no matter what and accept people where they’re at. Thank you for taking the time to read what I have to say.

    1. Hi Julia!

      I appreciate your words, and I realize Christians and gays do need to find some common ground. My article wasn’t directed at anyone in particular, but was more of a venting mechanism for my pent-up anger. I have just decided I am done arguing. I probably can’t convince anyone to change their mind anyway. I agree with you about how there should be respect, but it has to work both ways. I think the LGBT community has bore the disdain of the church community for far too long, and what you are seeing are the reactions of people who feel helpless and desperate.

      As far as whether or not the Bible should be used to settle the issue (and I’m not arguing here), I know simply reading the Bible is a matter of interpretation on the individual’s part, and there is no way anyone can speak definitively on its original intent. One of the references you pointed out (Leviticus 18:22-24) is surrounded by verses that speak against simple things like eating shellfish, wearing two types of fabric, sleeping with a woman who is menstruating, and planting two kinds of crops in the same field. I don’t know any Christians who hold themselves to those standards, but for some reason they have decided homosexuality is their favorite “sin” to pick on.

      Anyway, I will stop before I get back into doing exactly what I intend to stop doing. I honestly don’t care anymore whether someone thinks it is right or wrong. It won’t change a thing either way. ;)

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