I didn’t go to church this morning. There seems to be something holding me back, but I’m not sure what that something is. I have despised religions and denominations for a long time, mainly because of their unjust treatment of homosexuals. However, it’s ironic that after finding a church that is totally accepting, I am still having a hard time feeling like a true part of the congregation.
I suppose it’s just part of my personality; always feeling like I’m on the outside looking in, never fully accepted, never part of the “in” crowd, good at several things, yet not great at anything.
Another rather ironic fact is that I feel further from God than I have ever felt before, so going to church really isn’t accomplishing what I thought it would.