Make that change

I’m gonna make a change for once in my life,
It’s gonna feel real good, gonna make a difference,
Gonna make it right…

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All the presidential candidates are spouting off about change, so I may as well shake things up a bit in my own life. Now that I’ve had several years to think about what I want to be when I grow up, I think I finally have an idea. I’m not completely certain, but it’s a starting point and that’s enough for me.

I’ve been considering going back to school for quite some time. I could kick myself for not continuing my education immediately after high school, but I had no idea what I wanted to do and I could be stuck in a much worse job right now if I had done that.

I recently decided to look into getting an associates degree in a specific field. Of course nothing in life is easy, as this morning I discovered that the two-year program for said degree is limited to only 16 students per semester and requires previous classes that I have not taken. The sixteen students for the fall semester have already been chosen, and I have no idea when or if I would be selected for enrollment in future semesters.

Another issue is trying to figure out how I’m going to generate an income while attending college. The program that I’m interested in lasts around 5 hours a day, 5 days a week, right in the middle of the day. That is going to make it incredibly difficult for me to keep my current job. In fact, I’m not sure that I’d be able to work anything besides retail in the remaining hours of the day. I believe the nature of the program would prevent the possibility of on-line or evening classes.

Change is never easy, but just knowing that there is a possibility of improving my work situation is enough to keep me going.

(Lyric from Michael Jackson’s “Man In The Mirror.”)

5 thoughts on “Make that change

  1. Karen says:

    I paid a visit to Pacific School of Religion not because I wanted to go to seminary but because I was dead set against it. Me? A minister? No way!

    A day later, while the Financial Aids rep was making her presentation, I realized that seminary and ministry WERE right for me. But the numbers were scary, especially because I was single, not employed, and had no huge pile-o-dough at my disposal. How, oh how, could I do this? It was then, and I know that this will sound woo-woo, that I heard a voice that said, “Let money be the last of your concerns.” I knew it had to be God speaking because I’d never say that to myself. I drove home pondering that word from on high and undecided about how much to trust it.

    Fast forward several months. I get a call congratulating me on my admission. A day or two later comes a letter, one I thought was simply a confirmation of the call. NO! It was
    a letter telling me I’d been selected as the recipient of a newly-established scholarship. As long as my grades were acceptable, my tuition was paid in full!

    End of story…no wait! All throughout seminary money seemed to show up when I least expected it and always after I’d remembered what God had told me and then once again made money my last concern.

    God has a way of making a way where none seems possible, Brian. Keep close to the question of what would make your heart sing and your spirit light and I know God can be counted on to help you make your dreams a reality.

  2. during my many years of school, i decided to go the non-traditional program (ie nights/weekends/internet classes) route, and i lived off excess student loans, as well as odd jobs. i did a lot of freelance writing, worked at starbucks, etc. it was a lean, lean time, but i have no regrets.

  3. @ FreeFromItAll: I always try to think outside the box. ;)

    @ Karen: That’s a great story! I prayed last night and asked God to help me with this decision. It feels right so far, but I don’t want to make a big mistake, either.

    @ ohchicken: I think it always takes sacrifice to improve our situations, so I’m trying to prepare myself. I’ve had it too easy for too long.

  4. Karen says:

    Your prayer, Brian, reminds me of how I entered into my first (and absolutely wonderful) career. When I started college, my mother insisted that I declare a major because she feared I’d be in college forever. So I did what made the most sense and prepared to be an elementary school teacher. I was an excellent student, got raves when I student taught, but knew when I was done with my studies that this was NOT the path to take. That awareness scared the living daylights out of me and yet I knew that if I didn’t honor it, I’d end up a burned out teacher needing to start over again. So I got on my knees and prayed like never before. I reminded God that God knew me a lot better than I knew myself and begged God to show me what to do next. Almost immediately, an opportunity presented itself, then another, then another, each one feeling somehow right. And the rest is history–I ended up in a career I was really, really good at, one that allowed me to grow in so many ways, and which served as a foundation for my ministry (long before I even knew I was headed that direction).

    It is in God’s best interest to show you the path to take…God has all sorts of ways God can put your many talents to use for the good of the human family and to your great delight.

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