Christian agnostic

I am writing for the Christian agnostic, by which I mean a person who is immensely attracted by Christ and who seeks to show his spirit, to meet the challenges, hardships, and sorrows of life in the light of that spirit, but who, though he is sure of many Christian truths, feels that he cannot honestly and conscientiously ‘sign on the dotted line’ that he believes certain theological ideas about what some branches of the Church dogmatize.

Leslie D. Weatherhead, ‘The Christian Agnostic’

Books read in 2014

  1. The Year of Living Biblically by AJ Jacobs
  2. Looking For Alaska by John Green
  3. Have No Shame by Melissa Foster
  4. Don’t Let Me Go by Catherine Ryan Hyde
  5. Twelve Years A Slave by Solomon Northup
  6. Where We Belong by Catherine Ryan Hyde
  7. Once Upon A Haunted Moor by Harper Fox
  8. Tinsel Fish by Harper Fox
  9. Don’t Let Go by Harper Fox
  10. Redefining Realness: My Path to Womanhood, Identity, Love & So Much More by Janet Mock
  11. Falling Off The Face of The Earth by JF Smith
  12. The Fence And Then The Trees by JF Smith
  13. The Sticks by JF Smith
  14. The Last Day of Summer by JF Smith
  15. Latakia by JF Smith
  16. The Sticks by JF Smith
  17. Kitto by Harper Fox
  18. Into This River I Drown by TJ Klune
  19. Tell Me It’s Real by TJ Klune
  20. John & Jackie by TJ Klune
  21. Bear, Otter, and the Kid by TJ Klune
  22. Who We Are by TJ Klune
  23. The Art of Breathing by TJ Klune
  24. Meatworks by Jordan Castillo Price
  25. The Starving Years by Jordan Castillo Price
  26. Not That Kind of Girl by Lena Dunham
  27. Zombie Boyz by TJ Klune and Eric Arvin
  28. Woke Up In A Strange Place by Eric Arvin
  29. Wonder by RJ Palacio

Books read in 2013

  1. The Sound of a Wild Snail Eating by Elisabeth Tova Bailey
  2. Going Clear: Scientology, Hollywood, and the Prison of Belief by Lawrence Wright
  3. The Jew Store by Stella Suberman
  4. Heart in the Right Place by Carolyn Jourdan
  5. The Other Guy by Cary Attwell
  6. A Land More Kind Than Home by Wiley Cash
  7. Private Conversations in Neverland with Michael Jackson by William B. Van Valin II MD
  8. My Drowning by Jim Grimsley
  9. The Watch by Moonbeam McQueen
  10. Jesus Is Sending You This Message by Jim Grimsley
  11. Help, Thanks, Wow: The Three Essential Prayers by Anne Lamott
  12. Joe by Larry Brown
  13. Bastard Out of Carolina by Dorothy Allison
  14. The Key Is Love by Marie Osmond
  15. Scrap Metal by Harper Fox
  16. Life After Joe by Harper Fox
  17. Clear Water by Amy Lane
  18. The Boy Who Came In From The Cold by B. G. Thomas
  19. Caught Running by Abigail Roux and Madeleine Urban
  20. Denial: My 25 Years Without A Soul by Jonathan Rauch
  21. Driftwood by Harper Fox
  22. The Fault In Our Stars by John Green
  23. When I Found You by Catherine Ryan Hyde
  24. Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher
  25. Brothers of the Wild North Sea by Harper Fox
  26. A Midwinter Prince by Harper Fox
  27. The Husband’s Secret by Liane Moriarty
  28. I Wrote This For You by pleasefindthis
  29. The Catcher In The Rye by Jeff Marsden
  30. The Book Thief by Markus Zusak
  31. Fire Birds by Shane Gregory
  32. When You Were Older by Catherine Ryan Hyde

‘Help Thanks Wow’ by Anne Lamott

I just finished reading Anne Lamott’s book titled Help Thanks Wow: The Three Essential Prayers. It was beautiful. Anne has a unique way of understanding and elaborating on religious doubt. I could see myself in many of the pages, including the prayer in the following excerpt.

My belief is that when you’re telling the truth, you’re close to God. If you say to God, “I am exhausted and depressed beyond words, and I don’t like You at all right now, and I recoil from most people who believe in You,” that might be the most honest thing you’ve ever said. If you told me you had said to God, “It is all hopeless, and I don’t have a clue if You exist, but I could use a hand,” it would almost bring tears to my eyes, tears of pride in you, for the courage it takes to get real-really real. It would make me want to sit next to you at the dinner table.

I like the idea of being completely honest with God. I tend to completely shut Him/Her out of the equation when I am feeling low spiritually. This has actually been the case for quite some time now. I also completely identify with the idea of recoiling from most people who believe in God. Even so, I still pray. Often in the manner Anne descibes. Short and to the point.

If You are up there, please help this person get better.

If You exist, thanks for my home, my partner, my comfort.

Wow. You really outdid Yourself with these beautiful flowers. I’m in awe!

I’m never sure if anyone is actually listening, but I do it anyway. Since reading this book, I intend to do it more, and in a much more honest manner. If God exists, He/She already knows my thoughts, so there is no point trying to conceal them.

Anne sums up her book and my feelings perfectly with a quote from Matisse:

I don’t know whether I believe in God or not. I think, really, I’m some sort of Buddhist. But the essential thing is to put oneself in a frame of mind which is close to that of prayer.

Special thanks to We Are Fambly for bringing this book to my attention.

Books read in 2012

Books I read or finished reading this year:

    1. A Place of Yes by Bethenny Frankel
    2. Official Book Club Selection by Kathy Griffin
    3. Nineteen Eighty-Four by George Orwell
    4. Transparent by Don Lemon
    5. The Michael Jackson Tapes by Rabbi Shmuley Boteach
    6. The King of Clayfield by Shane Gregory
    7. It Ain’t All About The Cookin’ by Paula Deen
    8. Bossypants by Tina Fey
    9. Ender’s Game by Orson Scott Card
    10. Older Man, Younger Man by Joseph Dispenza
    11. Remembrance of Things I Forgot: A Novel by Bob Smith
    12. Boys Like Us: Gay Writers Tell Their Coming Out Stories by Patrick Merla
    13. The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins
    14. Catching Fire by Suzanne Collins
    15. Mockingjay by Suzanne Collins
    16. All That I See: The King of Clayfield Book Two by Shane Gregory
    17. True You by Janet Jackson
    18. Sidecar by Amy Lane
    19. The Fall by Ryan Quinn
    20. The Absolutist by John Boyne
    21. Featuring Michael Jackson by Joseph Vogel
    22. Robopocalypse by Daniel H. Wilson
    23. Don’t Let Me Go by J.H. Trumble
    24. Unconditional Love (Seven Days Series) by Andrew Grey
    25. The Commitment: Love, Sex, Marriage, and My Family by Dan Savage
    26. The Four Agreements: A Practical Guide to Personal Freedom by Don Miguel Ruiz
    27. Now You See Her by James Patterson and Michael Ledwidge
    28. American Gods by Neil Gaiman
    29. Society’s Child by Janis Ian
    30. Mortality by Christopher Hitchens
    31. Boys by G. A. Hauser
    32. The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde
    33. Dreams from my Father by Barack Obama
    34. Ethan, Who Loved Carter by Ryan Loveless
    35. Crazy Little Thing by Tracy Brogan
    36. The Convert by Oliver Broudy
    37. My Life and Other Unfinished Business by Dolly Parton
    38. Dream More by Dolly Parton
    39. Oranges Are Not the Only Fruit by Jeanette Winterson
    40. Why Be Happy When You Could Be Normal? by Jeanette Winterson
    41. Comfort and Joy by Jim Grimsley
    42. Winter Birds by Jim Grimsley
    43. Dream Boy by Jim Grimsley

The Four Agreements

the_four_agreements_bookI just finished The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz. I believe this book has the power to change the world. As the author states, “This is part of the evolution of the mind. This is the future of humanity.”

The book gives four simple-to-understand (but not so easy to implement) agreements that we can make with ourselves to drastically improve our lives.

Be Impeccable With Your Word
Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love.

Don’t Take Anything Personally
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.

Don’t Make Assumptions
Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness, and drama. With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life.

Always Do Your Best
Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any circumstance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse, and regret.

Books read in 2011

Receiving a Kindle for my birthday in May spurred a renewed interest in reading. I have devoured several books since then – both electronic and hard copy.

Finished Books:

  1. To Kill A Mockingbird by Harper Lee
  2. Water for Elephants by Sara Gruen
  3. The Help by Kathryn Stockett
  4. My Friend Michael: An Ordinary Friendship with an Extraordinary Man by Frank Cascio
  5. Earth Song: Inside Michael Jackson’s Magnum Opus by Joseph Vogel
  6. My Stroke of Insight: A Brain Scientist’s Personal Journey by Dr. Jill Bolte Taylor
  7. The Sky Is Everywhere by Jandy Nelson
  8. Finding Zach by Rowan Speedwell
  9. Sprout by Dale Peck
  10. I’ll Get There. It Better Be Worth The Trip by John Donovan
  11. What They Always Tell Us by Martin Wilson
  12. Seven Days by Andrew Grey
  13. The Locker Room by Amy Lane
  14. Something Like Summer by Jay Bell
  15. The Cranberry Hush by Ben Monopoli
  16. Cold Sassy Tree by Olive Ann Burns