Doubting Teresa


“I am told God loves me, and yet the reality of the darkness and coldness and emptiness is so great that nothing touches my soul. I have no faith. I dare not utter the words and thoughts that crowd in my heart.”

Mother Teresa – saint to many, selfless humanitarian to others – suffered a 40 year long crisis of faith that caused her to question the very existence of God.

For some reason that makes me feel a little better about my own lack of faith.

United Church of Christ Statement of Faith

We believe in God, the Eternal Spirit, Father of our Lord Jesus Christ and our Father, and to his deeds we testify:

He calls the worlds into being, creates man in his own image and sets before him the ways of life and death.

He seeks in holy love to save all people from aimlessness and sin.

He judges men and nations by his righteous will declared through prophets and apostles.

In Jesus Christ, the man of Nazareth, our crucified and risen Lord,he has come to us and shared our common lot, conquering sin and death and reconciling the world to himself.

He bestows upon us his Holy Spirit, creating and renewing the church of Jesus Christ, binding in covenant faithful people of all ages, tongues, and races.

He calls us into his church to accept the cost and joy of discipleship, to be his servants in the service of men, to proclaim the gospel to all the world and resist the powers of evil, to share in Christ’s baptism and eat at his table, to join him in his passion and victory.

He promises to all who trust him forgiveness of sins and fullness of grace, courage in the struggle for justice and peace, his presence in trial and rejoicing, and eternal life in his kingdom which has no end.

Blessing and honor, glory and power be unto him.


This UCC Statement of Faith was adopted in 1959 and is widely regarded as one of the most significant Christian faith testimonies of the 20th century.


The latest on Tammy Faye’s battle with cancer

Entertainment Tonight had a telephone interview with Tammy Faye this evening and they showed two photos that were taken of her last weekend. She’s down to 63 pounds, but she wants the world to see that she’s still going and hasn’t lost faith. I must admit that the photo breaks my heart and I only wish I had an iota of her faith.

tammy_faye_cancerToday is kind of a rough day for me. I have really wonderful days, and I have really bad days.

I would say I’m in pain almost 100 percent of the time. My back hurts, so I had to go to a wheelchair. And I have a very bad tummy all the time.

When they said there’s nothing more we can do, for just about a minute I felt sorry for myself, had my little pity party. Then I said, ‘I’ve got somebody bigger than the doctors, I know the Lord Jesus Christ, and He can do something for it.’ He’s the only one that can, and so I just trust Him every day.

Today I want you to remember: You can’t go forward, looking in the rear view mirror, yesterday is gone, you cannot put a broken egg back together again so don’t spend your energy trying.

Today is all we have so live it fully. Tomorrow may not come, we are not promised tomorrow. Princess Di thought she had many tomorrows, John Kennedy Jr. thought he had many tomorrows, Marilyn Monroe thought she had many tomorrows, Sonny Bono thought he had many tomorrows, Selena thought she had many tomorrows. So we must make today count, make today the best day of your life.”

Amen, Tammy. God bless you.

Help thou my unbelief

I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!” Mark 9:24

We’ve been studying different aspects of Christianity in our adult education class that meets after church on Sundays. During our last class, we dealt with the fallibility of the Bible.

It was very interesting to hear of the different accounts of creation that are given in the Bible, with definite errors in the timeline. These were things I had never noticed before, mainly because I never questioned them when I used to read them as a child.

I have been doing some more research on my own today, and have been simply astounded at the contradictions that are so obvious.

Some examples:

  • God told Noah to take two of every animal on the ark, then later tells him to take seven of some of the animals.
  • Genesis tells us that God made animals before he made man, then tells us that God made animals as company for man, because he was alone.
  • Circumcision is commanded, then discouraged.
  • It tells us we are justified by faith alone, then faith with works.
  • God tells us we should love our parents, while Jesus says we should hate our parents and follow him.

Anyone who has studied the history of the Bible knows that it was written by many different people at different times and then compiled by religious figures years later. It has been translated numerous times from countless different languages, and translation is more of an art form than a science. There are bound to be errors somewhere, I just never knew they were so extensive.

Our pastor explained that the book is still holy, but not infallible. It is the recounting of people’s relationships and experiences with God. I agreed with pretty much everything that was said in the class, but have found myself feeling torn about the conversation this morning.

I am going to church for a couple of reasons. First, I want to believe in God and I want assurance that I am not going some place bad when I die. Second, I love the fellowship that comes from having an extended church family.

Hearing that the Bible is fallible, and then reading the many examples causes me to only have more questions than I had to begin with. This gives me great concern, because I feel that I am moving in the wrong direction.

I want to believe in God, I want to believe in Jesus, I want to believe in Christianity, but I refuse to believe simply for the sake of believing. I want the facts, and if the facts make me uncomfortable, then so be it.

Maybe this is just part of my journey and I am going to keep my mind and heart open to God and trust that if he exists, he will show me the evidence that I need to be able to have a solid relationship with him.


(I do not endorse or agree with all of the opinions expressed on this source’s website, especially their callous interpretation of scripture “related” to homosexuality.)